Self Discipline is Needed

Self Discipline is Needed
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Sunday, January 1, 2012

Hello hello!

this is dedicated to all my new followers! hey there! thank you for joining me! :D you make me happy! if everyone that reads this wants to introduce themselves to me that would be awesome! wed be closer then! and help eachother out!

ok so i got good news and bad news.. bad news first. my friend came over and after my GOOD day, she wanted to go out to eat. i had lettuce wraps which is pretty healthy, but then i had two small slices of pizza. then i got a slice of cake. then later when we were watching a movie i got super hungry. it was like my body just realized how hungry i was from not eating all day and that food just angered it. so i had popcorn (diet kind) and hot chocolate and marshmellos and some nuts.. and mints. shit. so i didnt even bother to weigh myself. that was friday. then yesterday i ate eggs and onions. then went to the gym. then had a protein shake. then went to a party (new years!!) and had some chips and some wheat thins. then when we got home i was starving and had some more diet popcorn and hot chocolate. then i felt bad and while my friend was downstairs watching tv i binged. i know. what a horrible friend. i said i had to take a big dump. im close to her like that. then i purged.

bad news cont.. so this morning i had a special k protein bar for breakfast. (not bad) then i ran some errands and went to target. i saw all the clearance christmas sugar shit and bought some. i dont know why the hell i did that. then i ran to burger king and got fries and a shake. ate it all and purged. way to start out my new years resolution of no binging. fuck.

but good news... i weighed myself after my purge and i didnt gain any weight from this weekend. i still weigh 134.4. crazy. so im going to the gym today and then going to my aunts house to watch a movie. if i go to the gym and dont eat anything afterwards i will for sure lose tomorrow. the only challenge is CAN I WATCH A MOVIE WITH MY FRIENDS AND NOT EAT? we will see. i will bring a pretend protein shake in the car and just say i just finished the shake and am not hungry. well see how that works ill tell ya how much i weigh in the morning!

just doing laundry now, it feels so good to clean. i love cleaning. i love you all! shout out to all my followers! tell me a little bit about yourself!

xoxo gymnast

5 comments:

  1. One thing I do for myself is keep fast food off limits. Like, it's not even an option for me to binge at McDonald's because I would never ever go there. I can't. No way. It honestly doesn't even cross my mind because I know I can't go. Make some rules like that, it might help.

    And also, my name is k, I live in Atlanta, I do taxes for a living, I'm 26, I've gained 25 lbs since highschool. Yuck. I have true self loathing about my body

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  2. You know we all have slip-ups :D

    You'll be alright.I find once I even eat a little of any binge food, I need to binge.

    We all make mistakes, but your strong girl!

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  3. aww dear its ok!!! Tomorrow is a new day, always pick urself up & u can still stick to the new years resolution:) its never too late! Stay strong<3

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  4. DID YA MISS ME?
    ahahaa hola! I'm back and missed you like ca-ray-zayyyy!
    Anyways, shitty deal, but you still cant top BUFFET-STYLE EATING :D haha but on the plus, I'm still ROUGHLY the same as where I was sooooooo I'm thoroughly happy, and I'm ever so glad that you're the same too! Anywhoooo, I can see that you've added more and done some layout work since i've peaced from the country, so Imma go check that out now!
    Toodles <3 xox

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  5. Awweh :/ Everyone does this once in a while, it happens. At least you didn't gain any weight, just try to remind yourself that eating is NOT a priority. That's what I tell myself.

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