Organization and order!!

Ugh I am so stinking sick of my room and my life being a mess. As soon as I clean my room it gets messy again. I crochet for a hobby/second job and I have all these custom orders to do and ive been obsessed with that instead of cleaning my room and working out. Back when I was Anna, I had beautiful self control. My room was spotless, I had enough energy to clean the house for my parents, and I went running every day. How the heck could I do that?? I guess withworking all the time I don't have as much time as I used to, but still! I wanna stop this crocheting business so I can have time to clean my room and work out again. But when people give me the money from custom orders... That is nice... And that's what keeps my going I guess.

His is just me thinking out loud for what I'm gonna do when I wake up.

Wake up, stretch
Check eBay
Change sheets
Put clothes away
Pick up room
Make bed
Pick up downstairs
Vacuums downstairs
Do on demand workout
Get ready for work
Have Protein shake for breakfast
Eggs and veggies for lunch
Smoothie for dinner





Oh and rule # 5!!!

Have tea every night before bed (herbal tea to help me sleep) :)

Rule #4

Ok I found a rule that will be easy for me.
Do at least 20 push ups a day!

I used to do push ups all the time. I used to be able to do 66 real ones in a row wihout stopping. I wanna be able to do that again and maybe do 100 without stopping. It's a great was to get ur heart rate up!

Ok so
No eating after seven
Drink water before eating anything
No chips
20 push ups a day

Recipes and abc diet

Alright I'm on day two of the abc diet and I know this sounds crazy but I alreadyfeel smaller. My stomach looks flatter. It could be all in my head but whatever it feels good to me. I can't get rid of this awful headache today though. I'm just gonna take a nap after this then get ready for work. I'm gonna go rock climbing his Friday ive decided and I'm so excited!! Great workout and really fun.

Ok since I'm on the abc diet im gonna look for/make up my own recipes that are super low cal. Ito be fun! I love to cook and cooking low cal stuff will make it even more fun. I will keep you posted!!!!! Xoxo

Oh and new rules won't come until I can easily conquer the ones I already have lol. I get better and stronger each and every day.

Rule #3

Why the hell does my house have to have so much treats in it!!!!! My family is very creative and we make Lots of handmade things and had a boutique an my house. I made like 350 bucks. But my mom made all these different treats and candies and cookies and let's us have as many as we want. It's horrible to have all those sugary fattening treats surrounding you. Most of the time when I ate them I threw them up but sometimes I wouldn't. I don't want to gain weight! I haven't lost any weight since my rules and it's my own god damn fault. I luckily found a diet buddy and i might start the abc diet with her along with following my rules. So I haven't been verygood at following my rules, but it's a workin progress. I can't expect perfection in one day.

Ok rule #3

No chips. No chips of any kind. If it's considered a chip it will not hit my lips. I like chips bu they're not my favorite thing so I figured this will be an easy one. I'm just going to start telling people that I don't like chips anymore.

Ok rules are
1: drink tall glass of water before eating anything.
2: no eating after seven

3: no chips

Rule #2

Hello everyone! Today was first day of rule #1! I had purged the night before and had woken up with a headach and I felt like eating a nice big bowl of cereal. But I drank water instead and coffee and my hunger went away! It was great! Rule #1 kePt me from eating till like 1:00. I didn't eat much today so I feel Pretty good about it!

Ok rule #2... This one is very needed and I think it will help me a lot! NO EATING AFTER 7:00 PM!!!!!!!!

The rules may change over time. (like maybe in a month I'll change it to no eating after 3:00 who knows :) Hope everyone is doing well and feel free to do these rules with me if u want and let me know what u think!

Intro to "rules" and rule #1

Alright I'm sick of all this all or nothing failure stuff. I'm now making rules for myself, a new one everyday that will eventually be a list of daily rules to follow. These will help me to become an overall better person with self control and a skinny body.

So for Tuesday...
Rule #1. Drink a TALL glass of water if u are hungry and wait before u eat.

There. Easy enough... I can do that. I'm so glad I'm letting everybody know this because now I will think about u and what I said I would do the whole day and it will inspire me to live up to it:) I'm not gonna weigh mysf till Friday bec I know I gained this weekend!

Sick

I spent the day with my mom so I couldn't fast like I wanted to. She would never let me bec of my Ana past. After a big purge like two days ago my throat got really sore and I got extreme non stop heartburn:( it's been miserable and sore ever sense. And it's made me sick. I don't know if this sickness has anything to do with my purge or not, but my glands are swollen, my neck is stiff, my back is sore, my shoulders tight and painful, my ears ring and are plugged And my sinuses are stuffy and congested. Once I start feeling better I'm gonna work put. Tonight I ate quite a bit and had a huge cup of diet hot chocolate and for some reason I stepped on the scale. 139. It's the biggest number I've ever seen in my life. The heaviest I've ever been. I'm ashamed. I think this will spur me on to action. I discovered diet coke in my fridge downstairs! Yayyy! Im having that with my vitamin for breakfast and water of course. Coffee for lunch, veggies for dinner. If someone suggests that I have to eat or if I'm starving Im gonna have egg whites, vegitable boillon soup, and/or French onion soup in the cubberd. I'm so fucking fat right now I can't stand myself. I feel so unhappy rightnow I feel like dying. I can't wait to feel hungry in the morning. And I can't wait till I'm not sick anymore and when I can start working out like crazy!!!