Not Patient yet

Loving the calorie counting thing but I'm not quite ready to follow it yet. It's too slow for me. I have a friend coming to visit in less then two weeks and he hasn't seen me since last summer and I was skinnier then. So I have to loose at leas ten pounds fast!!!!!!!!! I'm following beautiful sunshine Childs diet that has worked for her.



 Breakfast= Sugarfree energy drink, hot tea, or black coffee. Lunch= Light yogurt ( Under 100 calories)   Snack all day on negative calorie foods and tea and coffee Dinner= fresh fruits and veggies. Weigh in every morning and post it! :)


Every once In a while I might swap the yogurt for protein smoothie/shake. I'm gonna work out like crazy this week and next week also. No excuses!!! I love it when events/people motivate me to lose weight. Its like a fun little game in my head. Alright im going to bed goodnigh love u all

On my way to the gym! And my plan...

I'll be brief bec I need to go to the gym in between work shifts. But here's my plan. I will follow the my fitness pal calorie stuff until tuesday and then on Tuesday I will eat super low calories. Like 300. Then on wed I'll eat the my fitness pal amount. I might do every third day a 300 cal day. I don't wanna screw up my metabolism so I'm hoping that will work! I'm excited to try it an I'll let u know how it goes!

I like fitness pal. But.....

Ok I love this my fitness pal app. It's really great. I ate a lot today it seemed like, but because I knew I would be logging the stuff, it was all healthy food. I felt a tiny urge to binge just once today, and it was before bed. Prolly a little less then an hour ago. I always binge and purge before bed. That's the only time I have time and my parents are in bed. Actually sometimes I do it when I'm drivin around. (on a really bad dAy) but for some reason, I didn't binge. I thought about it, almost did, but then didn't. So that was nice. I know for some reason it's because of this calorie counter app.

But here's the thing... Now that I'm getting a little control in life, I'm missing the times when I was really skinny and barely eating and running. I miss that soo much. I used to be able to loose weight FAST. like 10 pounds in a week. I miss that soo much. But I know if I go down that road that I'll prolly gain it back. I don't wanna mess up my metabolism but I read on anamia chronicles that this one girl eats 1200 cals one day, then hardly anything the next day. Supposedly ur body doesn't go into starvation mode until 48 hours of fasting. I kinda wanna try it but I'm scared of a couple things.
1) that on the days I barely eat anything I'm scared that I will be weak and give in and binge.
2) I'm scared that it won't work and make my body go into starvation mode and cling onto all the calories that I consume on the eating days And make me gain weight.
3) I'm scared that that comment on ana Mia chronicles was made by an anonymous hater and wanted some nieve person like me to believe it. I don't know what to do. Since todY was only day two of this, I'm gonna give it a week or two and if I start poising a little, then I'll try throwing a fasting day in there to see if that boosts my weightless. What do u guys think? Do u think it will screw up my recovering metabolism?


As far as exercise goes, still frequently hitting up the gym and loving it!!! I love the gym!!!!!!! It's my escape. Which is surprising that I haven't lost any weight since I started working out bec I didn't work out like this before. Oh well. One day at a time right? I want a cookie but I won't have one. Sigh. I'm kinda hungry but I wnt eat. I'm going to bed. Goodnight loves

yay:)

ok so this is day two of my fitness pal. ive been tracking everything and i still have 629 cals i can have! i had a protein shake for b, fruit for snacks, and a salad for lunch. and i had some cannadian bacon for a snack too. im gonna always try and stay just a tad under the cals, and if i work out, not count that as calories i can eat. my aunt did that on weight watchers. if she exercised, she wouldnt allow that to be extra calories, she just would like the negative calories. i feel very satisfifed and energized and not thinking "oh my god i cant do this." id reccomend this to everyone. it may seem scary at first, and not as fast as youd like, but its okay! i feel so good! by the way my starting weight is 136.8. dont know how it got back up there, but im starting fresh so im not too worried about it.

oh and i just got my period today so that could be why i gained a little. its sooo light, so im hoping itl be heavier tomorrow to relieve myself of some of this weight! i dont care that this weight loss is going to take a while, im doing this for me. the slower i loose, the easier it will be to keep it off. ive been struggling for MONTHS with this bulimia starvation thing and have i lost any weight? NO. have i been happy? NO. so a couple pounds a week? im happy with that. wish me luck ladies. love you all. i think i am seeing the road to recovery. just hope i dont get cocky. thats when people fall the hardest

I've been thinking...

I hung out with some random older people thAt I haven't hung out with in a long time. This one girl is super cool. Unique, quirky, I love her. She doesnt seem like one to care about her weight but she does like working out and being healthy. I gess she recently decided to lose weight like three weeks ago. She bought this app called my fitness pal and so far lost 7 pounds. She keeps track of her calories and all that. Out of curiosity I downloaded the app. The thing said I needed to eat like 1200 a day. And I was like are u flipping kidding me? That's so high! But I just tried it for one day. I tried to eat like a normal person. I felt sooooooo good! And it made me think twice about my decisions. Normally I would have a day of starvation, followed by a bing and purge, then a day of not caring, and the cycle would continue. And to top it all off, I'd feel like shit, id be killing myself, and I was starting to gain weight. My metabolism is so messed up. So I think this new app way will really work. I want a normal metabolism again. Then I accidentally went like 200 cals over so at like 9:00 tonight I wentto the gym. It was really fun. Good way to end my day. I normally would have just binged and purged at target or something. I really like this!!!! Ok so I'll keep u posted how this works.

Why am I not scared you may ask? I'm not scared because I'm ready to be healthy again and I don't want to kill myself and I want to have energy and following this strict calorie plan on this app still allows me to have the control that I need. I love it. I'm sure this is the OCD part of me talking right now, I've only used this thing for less then a day but I hope and pray that it works and that I can stick with it.

progress update! and new recipe

hi everyone! just thought id keep ya up to date on how my day is doing!

i put on a skirt and it went below my hips :D yippee im always paranoid that its going to fit snugly above my hips. so thats good. in other news, i was too afraid to go on the scale due to my sugar binge yesterday so i didnt. but i had a smoothie for breakfast and a smoothie for lunch and i feel great. a little hungry right now, but nothing that a diet ginger ale on my way to the gym cant fix. im still really sore in my legs today but im gonna work out, then go to work, then do a little gymnastics after work then go home and eat the rest of my smoothie that i stuck in the freezer. yay! i feel really good today, hope it stays this way. wish me luck! love you everybody!

oh and i made this wonderful salad dressing/veggie dip last night! i had it with my celery and its extremely low calorie.

1 tbsp spicy mustard
1tbsp balsamic vinegar
some water
garlic salt
cracked pepper

stir it up and viola! it tastes good to me, but i always eat wierd combonations of food so i dont know how good it will taste for you guys. i have before cut out the garlic salt and added a packet of splenda and that was also super delicious. i have these flavored balsamics that taste really sweet but have no sugar in them. like blackberry ginger. theyre soooo good but its really expensive. i got it at a specialty store. but anyways let me know what you think of the dressing, and mix whatever youd like in there. all my measurements are approximate because i just throw it together.

love ya! toodles till next time!

xoxo
gymnastskinny

way to long

hello! my apologies!! i dont know why the hell i havent posted in a week! my parents came back and all was well. i was gonna surprize them with a better anniversary gift but didnt get to it. shit. oh well, maybe ill just give it to them late. alright well ive been extremely stressed with a million things going on. but i have been going to the gym every day since i got my membership. thats like 15 days or something like that. wow! and today is my rest day. im so tired and sore today. i did this total conditioning class yesterday after i ate too much carbs but i was like the fastest in the class. i felt really good about myself. i wasnt the skinniest one there, but prolly the strongest and fastest. then i went to a dance party and danced for like 4 hours. but i came home and was SO FUCKING HUNGRY. ever since ive started working out more my appetite is soo strong. i cant resist it and i cant loose weight. i weighed myslef on friday and i was back up to 138.8. wtf. im so sick of gaining weight and eating. im so freaking scared to look at the scale because today i wasnt careful at all. i had two cupcakes from work and like 5 cookies. i purged a little after dinner, but still the bad stuff was way before dinner. i guess i ate bad because i was so stressed. but okay tomorrow is fresh and i will go to the gym before work and i will do gymnastics after work.

i will weigh myself every morning and continually lose.

oh and i got extremely inspired by Sunshinechild's posts about her smoothies and her successful weight loss. they are so full of vitamins i am so going to do that! the only thing is i need protein powder in my after workout smoothies. but i will do this. im gonna have smoothies with protein powder, skim milk and fruit. i will live off smoothies, veggies, and lean protein like canadian bacon and chicken breasts. i can do this.

thank you sunshinchild!! p.s. girls... her blog is awesome!

alright ladies i would love to tell you about my boy situation but ill save that for another post. love you all!
xoxo
gymnast skinny