Self Discipline is Needed

Self Discipline is Needed
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Thursday, December 22, 2011

It came! It came! It finally came!!!!!!!!!

Yayy I got the mail yesterday morning and it finally came! What came u may ask?? Good question. My moms friend lost a ton of weight doing the hcg drops and so did this other girl that I know. So I googled it and ordered it online. They finally arived yesterday. So today is daytwo of using them. They definatly help with my appetite during the day but at nigh I still have my urge to binge and purge. After work today (I quit at 9:30) I ran through the mcdonalds, then the gas station and got doughnuts, cookies, cheesy puffcorn and milk. Ate it all then purged. Remember when I told u that after I purge I get hungry and wanna eat again? Ya so then after I purged tonight I ate a whole wheat bun with butter and sal, sick I know. And two veggie sausages with cheese and catsup and sugar free hot chocolate. I'm super full now.

Work is going good, it was the last day till winter break. I'm gonna miss work. I'm gonna miss seeing guy number two. I love him so much. We get along sooooooo good but I think hes justgood with people and make everyone feel that way. I wonder if he feels that we have chemistry like I do. I hope he feels the same way as I do. My co workers invited me to go clubbing with them and he's gonna go and wants me To go. I've never gone clubbing before! I dont know if I should go or not. I just want him to ask me out again. And I want to love him and for him to love me back. But anyways I hope these drops and the diet with 500 cals a day works and that I can stick with it! Wish me luck! I love all my followers! Leigha girl love u!