sitting at break with my friends, we were having lunch. i take a sip of my coffee, a bite of my oatmeal.
"are you still dieting?" my friend mara asks, (shes the one whos marrying my ex)
"i was never dieting..." i lie. "im just trying to tone more, eat healthier, less sugar, ect"
"thats dieting" she said. staring at me. i never told her i was trying to lose weight.
"are you still trying to lose weight?" my other friend asked, (the maid of honor)
"eh" i replied, in a high tone voice, trying to sound casual... "just wanna prepare for summer" i smiled.. making my eyebrows bounce.
this bothered me however because i never told them i was trying to lose weight or even eat healthier. i told my aunt who is super cool and young and my friend and im sure she told them. she likes to gossip and talk about stuff like that. i cant believe they were talking about me behind my back like that. too bad i blew up my abc diet and gained like all the weight back. i hate the abc diet. its a bitch and it made me lose 7 pounds then gain it all back in less then 2 days. i hate it.
i loved it when i was doing successful though so im contemplating starting over. lol sorry for all the people who joined me. how are you doing if you did the abc with me??? im curious!!!!!!
but ya so now for food im just keeping a journal with a "safe foods" list and only eating those things. and im going to the gym in a little bit. then gonna find a friend to hang with. hopefully it doesnt involve food. ughhhhhhh
my friend/boyfriends 17 yr old cousin is dying of cancer. they think today is her last day to live. how shallow are we?
