I hung out with some random older people thAt I haven't hung out with in a long time. This one girl is super cool. Unique, quirky, I love her. She doesnt seem like one to care about her weight but she does like working out and being healthy. I gess she recently decided to lose weight like three weeks ago. She bought this app called my fitness pal and so far lost 7 pounds. She keeps track of her calories and all that. Out of curiosity I downloaded the app. The thing said I needed to eat like 1200 a day. And I was like are u flipping kidding me? That's so high! But I just tried it for one day. I tried to eat like a normal person. I felt sooooooo good! And it made me think twice about my decisions. Normally I would have a day of starvation, followed by a bing and purge, then a day of not caring, and the cycle would continue. And to top it all off, I'd feel like shit, id be killing myself, and I was starting to gain weight. My metabolism is so messed up. So I think this new app way will really work. I want a normal metabolism again. Then I accidentally went like 200 cals over so at like 9:00 tonight I wentto the gym. It was really fun. Good way to end my day. I normally would have just binged and purged at target or something. I really like this!!!! Ok so I'll keep u posted how this works.
Why am I not scared you may ask? I'm not scared because I'm ready to be healthy again and I don't want to kill myself and I want to have energy and following this strict calorie plan on this app still allows me to have the control that I need. I love it. I'm sure this is the OCD part of me talking right now, I've only used this thing for less then a day but I hope and pray that it works and that I can stick with it.
