ok so first of all i want to say that i came home from a meeting today starved because i havent eaten dinner. instead of eating/binging and purging on dinner plus snacks plus anything i could get my hands on, i went on the computer with some tea and diet ginger ale and gave my blog a face lift and am looking foreward to read my friends blogs and its just so nice to have this. You all are helping me with my eating disorder whether you know it or not. i love you all and i want you to know that you make my world a better place to live in.
what do you guys think of the thinspo pics?! not that many yet... but its a start. i havent told you guys this yet i dont think, but i am a contortionist as well as a gymnastics instructor. so i thought my new profile pic is fitting. its beautiful. not extremely skinny either, but i bet she pays attention to what she eats. it just represents self control and perfection for me. I love being a contortionist and working on new moves and hand balancing. i know id be better at it if i lost some weight. they guy that works with me on contortionism is russian and his daughter is so skinny and i can just tell he thinks i need to loose a little. all contortionists and acrobats are so skinny. i dont know why.
sorry about my ramble before about my mom. it helps though to talk about it to somebody. today my dad made me dinner, a burger. i came home from work, stuck the cold burger and homemade bun in a baggy and threw it in the fridge. i worked out, after i worked out i had a bite. threw the rest in the fridge. had a cabbage salad with balsamic vinegar. and thats it. so hungry right now but i wont eat a bite tonight! you guys are helping me with that! i dont need to eat after seven! its hard because im in the habbit of working during dinner time then coming home at like 8-9:00 starving so i eat dinner. and then some... back when i was really skinny i just wouldnt eat dinner. id have a small breakfast if anything, veggies and fruits or protein shake for lunch, then skip dinner, then come home and have tea and go to bed. and i would work out all the time. i envy those days. but i am reliving them today!
P.S. this is the first time posting from my computer instead of my ipod and it is sooooooo much easier!!!! im hooked! anyways love you all and love the ones esp that are my followers!
Hey thanx so much for ur comment on my blog! It was really sweet of u:) I like the new thinspo pics too! They really compliment ur blog & job. Wow, that's crazy, u must be really flexible then& good job on resisting the burger:D Stay strong<3
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ReplyDeleteWHAT THE EFFFF! EFFING BLOGGERRRR! okay, soo you may be wondering, what the hell- welllll I was just looking at all the blog updates I've missed the past couple days, and it didnt show me anything by you... I wouldn't have even noticed if you hadn't posted on the Chronicles... so I was like "what the hell, I follow Gymnast"... sooo I went to my list of "loves" on my page (based on who I follow)- sure enough, you're there but when I went to follow you it didn't give me the reminder that I'm already following... so I'm like "ok what the hell"... so I click it again, same thing... so I've just clicked "follow" link like 10 times then I manually added you to the blogs I follow, so basically what I'm trying to say is, DON'T THINK I HATE YOU! :) I see my name in the side bar now so I'm hoping it worked, but in case it decides to delete me again, know I lurvvv youuuu! <3 xox That is all.
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you're so strong and amazing and great job resisting, I've been disgusting lately but that changes tomorrow (mainly because its like 10pm right now so changing today is basically the same as tomorrow haha)
anyways, you're wonderful! stay strong! <3 xoxox
oh and ps, the facelift looks great too! ahaha
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