idk why but i am soo sensitive from comments from my parents. yesterday i was sick so i had like no make up on and my hair was a bit greasy and my dad walks upstairs and says "hi ugly" i know he meant it as a harmless joke, but it hurt so much. i almost said "Dad, girls dont like to be called ugly whether its a joke or not." but i didnt. i just held it inside.
i promised myself yesterday that i wasnt going to purge, but after i had hot chocolate (the non diet kind) i felt so full and guilty and i knew if i just threw that up that it would hurt so i binged then purged. despite having a cold and a sore throat.
but today ive been good. ive been home by myself all day and havent binged or purged. i had some special k cereal ( dry no milk) and a smoothie for breakfast with coffee. im going to have tea for lunch and sparkling water maybe veggies for dinner. thats it. maybe another smoothie or protein shake. but thats it. one day at a time.
im in a wedding in may that i HAVE to lose weight for. we got the dresses fitted the other day and mine was really tight. "perfect" i thought. a great inspiration for me and a goal. - next time i put that dress on it will be loose, and i will get looks from the rest of the bridesmaids and the bride and ill just say shoot! ive been working out a lot, i guess itl just have to be a tad bit loose! yayy im so excited! one day at a time. next time i feel like binging or having sugar i will post here.
ok i guess this is the time i post the pics of me...
ok ill admit i was sucking it in on the first picture. i am soo fat. i cant wait to lose this belly fat!!! honest opinions girls you dont have to worry about hurting my feelings!
love you all and shout out to all my lovelies. i miss you all
Purging reaaaalllly hurts your immune system so you'll get sick easier and more often if you do it a lot.
ReplyDeleteAbout the comment from your dad-- I think you should tell him that it made you upset. If he doesn't know that his words make you feel bad, he may make another comment like that again just thinking it's funny and everything's okay.
Good luck with your weight loss goals! Stay safe too though. You really don't look like you have very much to lose. (:
I really hope your dad was trying to be sarcastic... calling someone ugly isn't exactly a cute or witty pet name. I also think you should at least reply if he is rude to you again. When my parents criticize my appearance I just thank them for giving me their genes. It usually shuts them up. If you're comfortable being direct, being honest and sincere is the next best thing.
ReplyDeleteGood job on not bingeing or purging today. Every b/p free day is worth being proud of :)
Take care <3
(Thank you for the sweet comment on my blog :) following yours, too)
Being sick is the worst and on top of that haveing a comment thrown in your face. I hope your dad was being sarcastic so not cool. But sounded like you had a better day and special k cereal is the best totally my favorite. :)
ReplyDeleteStay strong to hit your goals! Your pics are not bad! You actually look alot like how I look now too haha. Don't worry its good to have a goal like your wedding to give you motivation. Good luck girly<3
Good job on not purging today! I know how hard it is to stop after ur so used to it, so its rly great 1 day at a time! u go girl! I had non diet hot chocolate a couple of days ago as well, its not thattt bad, 80 cals :/ & srsly dear u r not "sooo fat", ur not even fat! bt regardless i know how our eds drive us on & being normal is never something we can quite accept:( ur gonna b perfect for the wedding! Stay strong<3
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