hello all my lovely friends! i know it has been a while! i was looking at my weight goals and stuff and nothing has changed a bit. except for a pound or two. im back up to 141 pounds. im hoping to be under 140 in two days. i know i can do it. as for other things, i actually have a social life now... before i was isolating and now i hang out with people when they invite me. its wierd, like the more things you do with friends, the more you get invited to stuff.
im sick of this average body stuff though. im sick of my cellulite. and im sick of my double chin when i look down. im ready for a change. i am going to master up an eating plan and stick to it! im thinking of having whole grain carbs in the morning with my vitamins, then no bread or carbs after that. and fruits, veggies, and a little protein to prevent my hair from falling out. (my hair has gotten really thin these past few years)
ugh theres so much that went on you guys i dont even know where to start. remember that guy from ny? well i went out there with my friends to visit him as my boyfriend. he was kinda a jerk and a rich snob and got ugly and fat so i broke up with him.. while i was over there! i felt so bad but hey a girls gotta do what a girls gotta do right?
as far as my love life goes now, i am in love with one of my co workers. we laugh together all the time but he has no idea that im in love with him. hes the cutest thing ever. perfect face, nice bone structure, kinda short, but that doesnt bother me bacause im short too. he has dark dark blue eyes that sparkle, amazing buff body and the best but on a guy ive ever seen. since im a contortionist he always asks me to stretch with him after work. i enjoy every minute of that ;) and we are just goofy in a good way and i want to spend every day with him. i dont know how to make that happen though. hes such a busy guy and hes leaving for like 6 months to spain on a scholarship. he just got back from china for like 6 months on a different scholarship. he knows like 5 languages. Im trying to learn chinese, and i know a tad of spanish and can understand it for the most part, but he is completely fluent in at least 4 languages. always extremely polite and understanding and i have never seen him be unkind to anyone. oh god hes perfect. oh one day...
we might do an acrobatic routine together where i do my contortion stuff while balancing on him. if you dont know what sports acro is, google it, its the coolest thing ever. but ya so if im going to do that with him, i gotta get some weight off so that i dont crush him!!!!!!!!!!! so today no more food except for veggies, tea and water.
tomorrow i am going to have oatmeal in the morning, a protein shake at lunch, and a smoothie and veggies for dinner. nothing else! im so fat i hate it. ugggggghh. well ladys i apologize for abandoning you and i hope you are still following me! i love you so so so much and have missed you like crazy.
Wow, you're back!
ReplyDeleteIt's good to read your posts again and I'm glad your getting back on track!
Your diet sounds nice, too(:
Good luck~ Xoxo
I have never posted a comment before for fear of sounding stupid but I think you should tell the boy everything you told us in paragraph 4. Word for word. My guess is he has been waiting to hear it from you. Needing to hear it from you. There is nothing better than being in love with your best friend. I just celebrated 17 years with mine :-) Best of luck to you for a happy life. xo
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