driving in the car after church, i was starving. i hadnt eaten in 8 hours. "i still have like 150 cals left for the day..." i thought to myself. up ahead the main road in the darkness i spotted the mcdonals. the kfc. the super america (the frosted cookies at that gas station are my absolute favorite thing ever. tastes like sex) then i remembered how amazing taco bells chicken quesidillas are. and how innexpensive.
"ive done so good all day. it would be so fun and feel soo good to eat whatever i want. i could you know, and not really have it affect my abc diet. im gonna throw it all up anyways." my brain started to swirl like a tornado, planning on stopping at the super america, then taco bell, then the grocery store for doughnuts and ice cream and whatever else looked good. the sparatic day dream excited me, made me smile, glossed my eyes over, increased my heart rate.
"wait a second.. what the hell am i doing? im on a fricken diet. i cant binge! its so bad for me anyways.." then i thought about all the things i COULD have when i got home. diet pop, v8 with hot sauce, apple sauce, my crystal lights, and my dog waiting for me at home. i thought of being calm and peacable. and not hurting my throat.
instead of stopping at the poisen food places, i drove straight home, took care of my doggie, and heated up my v8 with hot sauce. AMAZING!!! oh and also i worked out today. it felt great. heres what i did...
slept till like nine...
took my diet pill.
had 2/3 cup of kashi go lean cereal, dry 127 cals
went to the gym. did an hour of yoga, it felt AMAZING! so spiritual. it strengthened my mind more then anything. then i did another hour class of cycling and abs. so much fun.
then i worked out my arms total workout = -620 cals
showered.
came home,
had a fruit smoothie with egg white protein powder for lunch 228 cals
went to work (i teach gymnastics, and it is very exausting. def a workout.) prolly burned a shit load of calories
went right from there to church, came home and ate my spicy soup and im gonna heat up 1/2 cup of applesauce in the microwave and put some cinnamon in it. very good and only 50 cals. :)
so that puts me at 505 cals. i figure with all that exercising i dont feel bad for the extra 5 cals lol.
my net is still -97 :D
so im so ready for day three. its gonna be tough but we can do this!
special thanks to...
love you!!!! :D
what i almost did today.. lol thank god i didnt. 
We've got this! (Oh the lovely temptations of the BP.) I don't even like BPing since I'm not much of a binger usually, but today I was sooooo close to going out with friends and getting crap to BP. I ALSO totally did not :) Yay
ReplyDeleteohmygosh girl! Ur doing so GREAT!!! So proud of u! god do i know the excitement of a planned binge! Bt at the end of the day u jst feel soooooo much better when u stick to ur diet:) Thanks so much for being SUCH an INSPIRATION sweetie<3 Stay strong! u can do this!
ReplyDeleteCongrats on overcumbing the urge to binge. That in its self deserves major props! Lord knows I know how hard it can be to realize what the hell you're about to do and just say no. I'm glad to see your doing so well. I had a good day too yesterday and I am doing great so far today as well =) Stay strong sweetie, we can totally do this! <3
ReplyDeleteThis post is WAY inspiring for me(:
ReplyDeleteGreat job not bingeing!
much love<3