i dont know how to eat normally. i baked untill 1:30 last night for this luncheon my friend is having for the wedding and her bridesmaids. in case you hadnt read about it, im in my friends wedding. shes kinda a bridzilla so its not as fun as it should be. and shes marrying my ex. my only boyfriend i ever had that i thought we had something. so ya.... its kinda hard.
but anyways i was up baking and i binged like 3 times. woke up this morning and binged again. i hate myself. i dont know how to eat like a normal person. i remember telling my mom that a couple years ago. "just read some health magazines or fitness magazines. that will remind you how to eat." my mother is no source of comfort what so ever. i hate those qualities in her.
so anyways i gotta run to this luncheon, i gotta look hot. and i gotta leave in an hour. ttyl love you ladies
oh honey, that's really hard and kind of cold of your friend to marry your ex, put you in the wedding, and be a pain in the ass bride (thats the cold part)
ReplyDeleteanyways, you'll figure it out love <3 have fun at the lunch
I feel you on that, Lovely... I do great during the day, but EVERY, SINGLE. NIGHT. I binge up to FOUR or FIVE times... and I know it's making me gain weight, I know its making me miserable, and I know I am doing it, but I cannot CANNOT seem to stop... it seems like some cosmic joke, but.. its not :( It's my life...
ReplyDeleteThat really sucks hun :/
ReplyDeletebut I'm so proud of you being there regardless.
Keep strong <3 You can do this!
I'm sorry, that wedding sounds really stressful for you to deal with. Hang in there. You're a beautiful & very strong person and you deserve happiness.
ReplyDeleteNot sure if you want advice on this, but for the night time binge issue, maybe if you eat a little more during the day and go to bed earlier than usual it may help reduce craving at night. I'm sure you know this; binges are so painful emotionally. It's a lot easier said than done, but you need to forgive yourself when it happens. Move forward with a positive outlook and tell yourself that you'll feel better and eat better next chance you get. beating yourself up will just make you sadder and sadness can definitely be a trigger for ED. I hope things get better for you, you really, really do not deserve the pain you're going through right now.
That whole wedding thing is harsh. I hope it all works out for you! I get the whole binging at night thing which is why I basically live on gum sometimes.
ReplyDeleteAll my support,
<3 A Fragile Heart